i'm worrying my future. I can't sleep properly just to think what will happen on me tomorrow. i come from mediocre economic condition family and that thing really give a pressure on me. i live in boarding house and make me really frugal. i even remember last fasting, i just ate 1 instant noodles for break my fast. i sacrifice my young time just to build my own branding. i beated more than 70 people just to got IELTS scholarship. i force myself to did internship where it's really stressfull that make me lose my weight. i did exchange. i got scholarship, i got certification. i did everything just to make sure that i have safe place on my future. but still, i'm worryng my future. i got anxiety every night. i feel al of things i fight is useless. what should i do to at least lighten my burden? i become greedy, and just thinking about how to generate a lof of money for my family. i really wanna build a good home for my mom and dad. this may be funny, but i once think to sell my kidney back then when i graduate from vocational high school, i even search how to do that. please help me, help me to go out from this situation, i really wanna be ordinary person but i can't stop it